Sunday, January 18, 2004
.nocturnal.
my life is becoming so unhealthy. just came home from clubbing again. the amount of second hand smoke i breathe in this 2 month is really horrible. i wonder why i start going clubbing when i used to find it a waste of money and time. peer influence perhaps. my friends just want to go. one of my friends even tried approaching different group of girls at different times, but then, all failed.
i wonder whether what i did just now was correct. it is my first time. i wouldn't have done such things if i am attached. am i being sporting, or just love the feeling of being free? could i have just rejected the move? i dont feel guilty, but neither do i feel the thrill of it. its the beginning. will this be the last? i wonder..
wanted to meet my long lost pal, but she left earlier. i wonder if she is at her right state of mind these few days. i read her blog and she seems miserable.. full of troubles. wonder whats wrong...
floated away at
4:13 AM
