different kind of people evolves around my life. some just irks me. some just are irritating yet lovable at times. some are hypocritical. some appears so truthful that you start to wonder if such people really exist, and of course, some brighten up my life and let me forget the irritating people i have to face.
true. anger leads to revenge. revenge leads to MORE revenge. it will never end. so i am not going to start a war any time now. i am looking forward to the volleyball competition in Mid October, swimming competition at the end of the year, fun lifeguard attachments that can get me out of people i can't really stand, and my birthday that is gonna come 16 days later. ( *hint hint* 16 October is a Saturday! ). No birthday celebrations yet. No energy to plan. Not sure who to celebrate with. Perhaps no one wanna celebrate with me in the first place. ha. Its no longer a popular contest. I no longer need MANY SMSes to feel secure. to see how many friends i actually have. how many people actually remember my birthday, because I myself do not remember my friend's birthday! (MOST so if i remember yours, be HONOURED). I have friends that I know i can count on whenever I am down, and I am grateful for that. really.
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10:53 PM
Sunday, September 26, 2004 .21km run.
army half marathon today is such an experience. i conquered all the aching and completed my first 21km run. i am surprised i did it actually, without stopping at any point of time. i can't say i am good, but yes, i am pretty satisfied with myself. thats why i like my army life. allowing me to do the stuff i never thought i can ever do, such as getting in inter-formation swimming and waterpolo, completing a triathelon , finishing a 16km run followed by a 21km run, and did quite well in fact! perhaps its my determination, my competitiveness and the pride i have in me. still, there are many flaws in me i need to change, and many more barriers to conquer, such as dealing with weird and fucked-up people, win as many prizes in the coming swimming competition, and ORD with more achievements to come! I don't want a life with nothing to be proud of. army changes me. i have to agree. without army, there wouldn't be such a determined me wanting to excel in whatever i do, conquering my limits, and so far fare quite well with the number of achievements i have made. i am proud of myself. yes i do, but still it isn't enough. its never enough.
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Saturday, September 25, 2004 .losers are everywhere.
i hate losers. i hate people who turn to scratching people's car when they know direct confrontation can never work for them. yes, they are pathetic. so pathetic. people who thinks they can live their way thru by just slacking, by escaping all the work, by spending everything they earn, come on, get yrself a life. you can never succeed. perhaps i am too objective. perhaps i am too direct at times. but if u are unhappy with me, confront me. tell me RIGHT on MY FACE. don't do despicable stuff like talking on my back, scratching my beloved car , or stealing my important documents which will get me into shit. come on. its just too loserish. LOSER. LOSER. LOSER.
i am just expressing what i felt 2 days ago. yes. my car got scratched. a very long key scratch . deliberate, and look very fierce. hate me all you want. i don't really bother, but remember everyone now knows you are a LOSER. a complete failure in life.
i guess life is just like that. all sorts of people. people u can never clique with. people you just can't wait to see his deserts. people you just feel shouldn't exist at all. there shouldn't be hatred among people, but too bad, its impossible.
take advantage of me. exploit me. i don't really mind. no harm for me. at least i learn so much more. i don't mind doing dirty work. at least now i know how to use the excel WELL. at leadt now i know how things around me work and not behave like i know a lot but actually don't. now, tell me. who is the loser? the loser who scratch my car. the loser who feels he can get away with slacking his way through. the loser who thought he can be successful in life next time without working hard. the loser who thinks having a life means going to geylang to fuck some chick. the loser who thinks leading a sporty life is just plain boring. the loser who nobody respects. the loser who knows nuts. the loser who knows he is a loser yet tries so hard to prove he isn't. yes. these people just exist in this world. and unfortunately, i work with him everyday. i need to see his pathetic face everyday. don't pity me. pity him. i don't think he really likes my face too anyway. ha.
losers like him makes me stand out. at least i get more trust, more accolades, and of course more work to do. i hate doing nothing. i predict i will be a workholic next time striving very hard to get up the corporate ladder with the quickest time possible, before anybody does. yes i am competitive. so what. i just don't like being classified as the lower class. i will never allow myself to. NEVER.
i don't care. think that i am a loser who will just say and never do? be patient. just wait.
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Saturday, September 18, 2004 .saturday can never get better.
so much privacy. so comfortable on a Saturday night. nothing to bother about. no hangovers. no obligations of sending anybody home. no fear of embarassing yourself. no one to deal with. just a little lonely. and poor.
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Thursday, September 16, 2004 .mixed feelings.
defiant. frustrated. annoyed. sick. ugly. irritating. stingy. lousy. unwanted.
life suxs. its tough maintaining happiness. somehow or rather, happiness just slip off after a few days. recalling the happy days, i suddenly feel so helpless.
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11:53 PM
Sunday, September 12, 2004 .clubbing.
nowadays, i always get really high when i goes clubbing. Its either I have an extremely low alchohol tolerance level, or I just wanna get high. Come to think of it, getting high is a good excuse to do anything you want yet didn't dare to do, such as telling somebody off, dancing at the platform, approaching pretty girls, blablabla. but at the end of it, everything just turns out meaningless for me. I don't like the idea squeezing through crowds, especially when the crowd consist of majority guys, and bumping onto extrememly "high" people who just can't control their movements. Maybe, i should just quit clubbing. Indeed, its fun at times, but still, its more of self-denial, and like one of my friends say, self destruction. Everyone knows that, but youngsters just wanna club. Same for me. I wonder why.
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Thursday, September 09, 2004 .the best army life i had.
had the best army life ever on Monday. went on a sea expedition as a lifeguard and YES, its so darn fun. went all the way to sentosa from camp by Assault Boats.. passed by places like Sengkang, Pasir Ris Park, Changi Village, Changi Naval Base which is protected!, Bedok Jetty, East Coast Park, Sembawang Park, Pasir Panjang, PSA, Siloso Beach, and many many many many more! what an experience, and the best thing is, i don't need to pay a single cent! At Sentosa, we had BBQ at night! SHIOK. BUT the sacrifices i had to make were countless sandflies bites and very very bad sleep. ha, but still its worth it. :) published some pics that i took : -
preparing to move off..
counting strength... nice scenery yea.. ha.
moving off AT LAST..
damn SHIOK...look how happy we are.. ha
another happy shot with the medic..
my IDEAL home... just beside the SEA.. i will definitely buy over the building if i am loaded :p
after a long long long 5 hours, we finally reached our destination, Pulau Hantu( Small Ghost Town ).. what a place to go on the 7th month
another clearer view of Pulau Hantu..
had BBQ... look at everybody.. you call this army life?!
the place i slept for the night. extremely cooling at night, but the mosquitoes and weird flies that attacked me are OUTRAGEOUS, so i ended up sleeping for only about 2 hours. damn.
erm. despite 2 hours of sleep.. i still woke up feeling refreshed yet a little dizzy. YES, and I still can take a pic of myself.
nice scenery in the morning... do u see the boats in the background? cool isn't it?
time to move off! hey! the boat is NOT supposed to overtake US! but still, cool shot by my friend :)
do i really look that ugly with this flat hair?! ha. i personally like it actually. :p take note that i took my "dream home" as the backgroud. ha.
wohoo! i am ramming the assault boat at a damn high speed. look at the waves you will know. ha. the feeling is really good, though my butt still hurts after this. imagine ramming the boat for 4 hours..
my fav pic. :)
phew, AT LAST. all pics uploaded. don't get jealous over my life. :) too bad events like these don't happen all the time. :( i love the SEA. i love the carefree life. i love MY army life.
060904-070904 Sea Expedition!
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Sunday, September 05, 2004 .weekends.
weekends are great, or shall i say, most weekends. its the time for catching up , chilling out, or even a mad wild night. no matter what it is, how it is spent, its just great to do the things you wanna do. weekdays are usually so restricted. weekends should be carefree. i appreciate the freedom i get during the weekends. i enjoy the company of close friends. i love exploring new places to chill out, eat and hide. realise orchard road no longer is the only place i go during the weekends, all thanks to my car, and of course my beloved dad.
singapore is so comfortable. so safe. With the recent 'russian kids being held hostage' incident, i tend to realise how lucky being in Singapore is. no fear. no trepidition. of course, nothing is definite. but still, Singapore is great, definitely a conducive place to live in.
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11:18 PM
Friday, September 03, 2004 .a relaxed week.
this week has been a relaxing one. i am in the office most of the time. and busy clearing my off which is piling up. ate vegeterian buffet for the 1st time . (gosh!)
sprained my ankle while playing basketball. went back sajc to see teachers who i never get to see. late working hours because i have irresponsible colleagues. but at last, this week is almost over. :)
