Monday, October 24, 2005
.school.
school isn't making me very happy.
school work is piling up. my results ain't up to my expectation, and nothing in school seems to make me happy. no eye candies. no confidants. no motivation. nothing.
life now is about how to do well in school, and how helpless it is sometimes to get grades way below your expectation no matter how hard you try.
life just suxs big time now. so stressed. so meaningless.
i need to cheer up. i need to loosen up. i need stress reliever. i need a funny friend.
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9:08 PM
Thursday, October 20, 2005
.fucking fucking fucking shit.
the worst day of my life.
i guess its the aftermaths of a few happy occasions. Reality is telling me not to be so contented with my present life.
Early in the morning, I woke up late. I got up my bed, had a 1 minute bath, and rushed out of my home after applying some wax on my hair and stuffing a slice of bread into my mouth. I went to the bus stop and missed my bus while I was at the traffic light junction. Fortunately, another bus came soon after and I took it. I didn't want to be late for for comms test later.
Later on, the comms test was a flop. again. I always flop in comms. suxs. I didn't have enough time to finish my letter, and I know it will be flop. again again again. pissed off, and then came my comms presentation results. I got C+, which was super farked up. Practised so much, yet screwed up on actual day. Fucking pissed and sad. My flu and headache weren't helping much too.
I also got back my Stats Mid-term exams. I think I got lowest in class. Super demoralizing, especially seeing all my peers doing extremely well. Inferior, and feeling so shitty. No excuses, since I chose tuition over results.
I am still feeling so pissed over myself.
Lastly, I went for a haircut which made my head like a fucking cow-dung. Pissed off plus plus.
I fucking hate my life right now.
To think I was so happy 3 days ago.
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11:54 PM
Monday, October 17, 2005
.happy happy 21st.
i thought my party might be a flop.
i thought it might just rain and ruined my whole party plans.
Fortunately, it didn't.
I had a great time, and I really had a memorable one. Of course, it wouldn't be made possible without the help of my beloved family, relatives and my friends. All of them made my day, and thanks to them, I felt my birthday party was kinda successful.
To my parents, I love you people. My dad for sponsoring, and my mum for making all the arrangements and buying all the stuff for meee... and making sure everything goes on smoothly..
My brother and DA SAO for getting all the satays + making sure everything doesnt cock up... and all the BBQing.
To my uncles/aunties/neighbours, I really appreciate your presence, and of course the fat ang paos :)
To my cousins, thanks for ALL the help.
To my beloved friends....(IN NO ORDER OF MERIT), I wish to thank the following for being part of my party:)
Baoting for staying throughout the WHOLE thing helping out in whatever you can :)
MY SA GANG Jonathan,Lionel,Zongyao,Zongfu,Munhon,Weehwa,NguanTeck, thank for being my coolies. I know my party wouldnt have been so smooth without YOU GUYS.
01S21 gang ( B4,Edwin,Colin,Zhengchong,Fab,Deren,Joanna,Yunxu,Gil,Grace ).. I really love your company!
Sheena+Hongjie for being my first 2 guests (in a way)
Carrie for the card.. and the shirt. I know you have no time. THANKS THANKS THANKS.
Nelson for coming despite his pai ka.
Margaret and Joanne for the shirt.. and the constant suaning *&#@(@
Vagen, Lawrence and David for making an effort to come despite having another party!
My Armceg Men Regan,Louis,Yewen,Wenjie,Vincent,Roger for the garangness!
My BMT buddies Jiaxing and Ronggui for coming down.. when Jiaxing is having HIS party at 10 the very same day!
My very very close army buddy Junyi.. with his scandal Jess for talking cock!
JJ,Tim,Kelly,Dickson,Peggen,Sabby,Dion..... for choosing such a nice gift for me...
Sorry DAVID AND SQ for neglecting!
Elvin for staying throughout the whole nightt with me!
And many many others.
charles.siqing.randy.anna.waihon.jaz.jingen.shiqin.jianhong.
ian.calvin.yenhan.shaun.hilda.tiffany.spencer.
estherandboyfriend.sheryl.chekwei.justin.fush.
Not forgetting those who couldn't make but said they will make up for it :P
minmin.huimin.jiahui.yingzhi.carissa.lenise.
Who else..... Hope i didnt miss out anybody :P
OK I AM GETTING DAMN BORED WRITING THISSSSSSSSSS.. TOO MANY PEOPLE. CANNOT TAKE IT ALREADY.
I shall upload the party photos another time k!
I really had a very memorable 21st! And I am still smiling now :)
21st at last.
Can watch RA movies.
Can throw my IC at the bouncer at Club Momo already. JJ, wait longer k? :P
I love my ipod nano!
I love my 501 jeans!
I am writing crap now!
I love everybody who came!
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12:50 AM
Friday, October 14, 2005
.sigh.
i am so busy.
it's supposed to be my mid-term break now, but I find myself busier than usual.
Busy planning for my birthday party.
Busy meeting projects' deadline.
Busy sleeping. Ha.
But.. It has been quite eventful so far.
Windsurfing, modded my car, frisbee competition blablablaa..
Fulfilling holiday so far.
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4:13 PM
Friday, October 07, 2005
.2 fallen pigs.
i am not sure whether this is self-amusement.. but when I woke up from my afternoon nap today and saw my brother's bed, I just couldn't stop laughing.
Look at the 2 cute pigs! I just don't understand how these 2 pathetic pigs manage to trigger my laughter cells. HAHAHA...
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8:35 PM
.not very happy.
it's now 2:30AM. I am still awake. Yesterday was worst. I slept at 3am. So deprived of sleep.
Thursday wasn't exactly smooth. I think I screwed up my Comms Presentation. Blardy pissed because I had quite a fair deal of preparation. All because of anxiety and nervousness. Fuck. Just saw the email 30% of the class got a C grade.. and I am very sure I am one of them. Fuck. Damn pissed off. Super ultra.
So depressing.
Stats mid-term wasn't great too. It suxs. Insufficient preparation and revision I guess. There goes my 30% .
Another quiz later. I better sleep.
Suxs.
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2:28 AM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
.thanks god.
busy busy schedules. i know i have been complaining like mad how busy I am. Very over-used but true. I don't even have time for gym and swimming now. I am a flabby ass, and I look very pale. I have been having irregular meals and can't stop dozing off in buses. I even nearly missed my bus stop 3 days ago. It's HOW BAD.
I guess it must be the tuition + stiff competition from my ultra competitive class. Fortunately, tuition is gonna end after next week. I am gonna give up one more before I collapse one of these days.
Sometimes, i think I am really lucky. I can't imagine myself taking another module. If my bid for Psychology had been successful, I will be a more screwed person. Phew.
And I am a changed person. Yesterday, I slept at 5am because I was rushing for my comms project. I am so hardworking. Ha.
My whole body is aching now. I need some energy. My Stats Mid term is tomorrow, and I don't want to fail.
Late night suppers are killing me. I thought in S*U, there wouldn't be supper outings. I was so wrong.
I just hope my ultra busy schedule will be over soon. But I anticipate I will miss it. I hate staying idle. The busier the better. lol.
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5:35 PM
Monday, October 03, 2005
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11:27 AM
Sunday, October 02, 2005
.weekend again.
friday was spent with my group of buddies from SAS. Was in school for some ASOC meeting, followed by stressful tuition. Met up with them at Geylang and ended up at some pool place near S*U. Quite nice and we played scrabble. They came to explore my school after which. Don't understand why I still see familiar faces at 3am in school on a friday night.
I woke up late on Saturday. Went for tuition and then to school for revision. Feel that school is really conducive for studying. Contemplated whether to go for a concert, but decided not to because I will feel so extra. Met my JC mate for dinner, and engaged in a long and comforting chat at Cafe Cartel, Marina Square. Saw my friend's gf. Chio la .. HAHA. Sounds insincere, but reallyyyy. Toured the whole Singapore and went recce at some strange places . Quite an adventurous day . Not to forget exploring haunted houses and going to a stuffy macdonalds! argh.
Today, woke up late and decided to go gym since I havent been going for weeks. V flabby and shapeless. Feel that my effort for the past few months have gone to waste. Suxs. Need to run more, swim more, go to the gym more. Watershock wasn't very fun. It was at raffles marina .. and we could try out many stuff like wakeboarding, windsurfing, sailing and such.. but since I went late with a few friends, I missed out lots of stuff... except for BANANA BOAT which was damn fun. But.. at least.. I felt relaxed and so stress-free.
Now, I am thinking of my mid-terms next week ,my birthday preparation ,COMMS presentation and how I am going to cope with my busy schedule next week.
So bored. *yawn*
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10:59 PM