Wednesday, January 21, 2004
.too fortunate?.
i live in a condo. i have a car to drive. i have never experienced poverty. i usually get what i want. i can swim whenever i want because the pool is just right below. i get to eat at restaurants at least once a week. i have broad shoulders. i am not born weak or handicapped. i have looks that isn't disgusting in other people's eyes. i am easily noticed. i am usually not being forgotten. i have legs to walk. i am capable to pass driving with just one attempt. i have parents who are willing to fetch me to camp everyday if the car isn't available for me. YET i often lament how biased my parents are. how unflawless my complexion is. how skinny and fat i am. how unsightly my scar is. how damaged my hair is. how unwealthy i am. how slow i swim compared to other stronger opponents. how small my room is. how untalented i am and .............................................
i just have countless things to lament on.
many people express that i am so fortunate. am i? many people see things on the surface. some millionaires may live in mansions with posh cars, but are they really happy? should one really appreciate what one already has. is being desirable plausible? feelings are just so convoluted. i shall reflect more on this.
happy chinese new year. its time for reunion dinner. i don't feel the excitement. the anticipation. i wonder why i became so stoid. so dead.
floated away at
6:44 PM