the swimming pool has became part of my life. just when i thought i have to start going back to the dreadful seletar camp again, i was told i am actually attached out for inter-formation swimming for 4 days. YES! back to the pool again. ha. k. had an event today. 4 (times) 100 freestyle relay. we got 3rd =) another medal in my room after so long... FINALLY.
but.. it isn't that honourable winning this anyway. my team came back 4th, but ha, the 3rd team got disqualified, so... HA. yes, sheer luck. has no events tomorrow, but still i will go watch the competition tomorrow at about erm, 9? ha. my army life is really marvellous so far. i love swimming.
however, i felt a little bad attaching out everytime. this means my colleagues will have to cover my job scope for me. i know they are definitely talking behind my blardy back. how slack i am. how a fucker i can get. but i chose to ignore how they look at me. how they view me. how mean their comments will be. perhaps they ain't saying anything. but ha. people just love to comment. i don't wanna bother too much of office politics=p BUT i still kinda feel bad.
was out for lunch with one of my friends just now. he told me it doesn't pay to be kind and innocent. people will just take you for granted and even "eat" you up. its true. thanks to the complexity of the human characters, people turn evil. they start thinking every kind deeds done is with an ulterior motive. haii. so in the end, no one bothers to be the nice guy. what a sad world.
ok, lets comment on my new look. lol. EVERYONE who has not seen me for the past 2 weeks gives that very-stunned face whenever they see me. yes, i am black, but i don't find it exaggerating. BUT, why, everyone thinks i am too burnt. ha. i kinda want to maintain this tan, but my vanity stops me so. LOL. the most hilarious incident is.. one of my friend saw me at parkway and couldn't recognise me. WTF. the last time he saw me was 3 weeks ago. ARGH! ha. it isn't that bad right but i am curious why hawkers aunties start speaking to me in broken english instead of chinese. */@!*/#*.
my new car is gonna hit 1,000km already. its time for servicing, but borneo motors is so damn inefficient. the earliest servicing date is on the 16th and the earliest i can get my WHOLE car done up with the bodykit is 29th march. wtf. sorry for those who is trying to figure out what is a bodykit. LOL.
erm. on my way for a nicer bod. i see a few pecs at last. ha. i wanna continue swimming. i wanna reach national standard. i regret starting training so late. i should have conquered my fears of exposing my scars in public swimming pools, but right now, i still haven't conquered. i still try VERY HARD to cover up the ugly scar i have. it just attracts too much attention la. i hate unwanted attention. sometimes i wonder why must i be so unique in some ways. why the hell i attract more attention compared to my peers. why the hell i often get weird stares from strangers. i don't know why.
