sometimes, i feel i am just too nice, too kind, too good a friend. sometimes. realise i will do what i can for friends, colleagues and family if its within my reach most of the time. but i begin to ask myself.. is being nice worth it? will people realise it? are people hanging around with me just because i am nice? do they just want a lift or something? will they appreciate what i have done?
and, do i have the right to be pissed off if i end up waiting for people instead of people waiting for me EVERYDAY just before book out? i really hate waiting for people. i mean.. yes, i am already providing convenience for them, but they still ended up letting me wait, wait and wait. is it too cruel or haughty if i just drive off without waiting for these people? my view is, i know i am fortunate to have a car at this age, and i hope people around me get to enjoy too, but some are really getting on my nerves. sometimes, i feel. yea i am lucky. so what. its my business. i don't have the obligation to please you just because i am more fortunate than you in a way. if you want a lift, make sure you wait for me, and not the other way round. now people thinks i am flaunting my arrogance around. wth. its hard being nice, really.
i feel its just not worth it. to some, yes. but most, NO.
