today, i brought my tuition kid to compass point as promised. A 9 year old kid actually has the ability to make me ponder upon how f**ked up some people around me are and how the innocence soon diminish as we grow older. His innocent actions like sharing his chicken with me, feeding me fries, saying things like : " if u don't eat, i also don't wanna eat" and holding my hands wherever we go ... just touched me. i never had an opportunity to act as a big brother before. this feeling is so .. great. i can't believe somebody like me who can't even bear to spend much on myself actually don't mind splurging money to make this innocent kid who is not at all connected to me in any way happy, and the wonderful thing is, this sensible kid of mine actually reject all the offers and treats even though i can tell he really WANTS it. He told me this when we were at KFC : " I love my parents. I want to work hard so i can employ 2 nurses to take care of my parents when they are old. I will NEVER send them to the old folk's home. If my wife cannot live with them, i will divorce my wife. " OMG. can u believe these words come out from a 9 year old? i am totally stunned. this strikes my mind. is it true that kids that comes from not so well-off families are more sensible than those who comes from rich families? his dad drives a lorry. they live in a 3 room flat. there is a total of 6 person in the family. i wonder how 6 of them will be able to squeeze themselves in 2 rooms. (parents, 2 brothers, 1 granny and 1 maid )perhaps thats why i am very nice to this kid of mine. he is so sensible. so innocent. so lovely. he may be very very naughty at times, but i just CAN'T hate him.
returning to my home, i can't help but feel gratitude towards my parents. my dad works so hard just for this family. since primary 1, my mum has been fetching me to school WITHOUT fail till sec4. In J1-J2, ashamed to say, i started taking public transport and then the start of my independence. Very soon, after getting my license, i started driving my mum's car whenever no one is using it. In fact, there were many occasions when my mum sacrifices the car for me. And 4 months ago, after knowing i got an 8-5 job at my camp, my father started scouting for a suitable car for his dear son to drive to camp, WITH condition of course. I became the first among my friends to be a proud owner of a first-hand car which i myself didn't at all expect to have. Then recently, i quarrelled with my mum because she kept asking me to consult this doctor as she suspects i might have kidney problem because of some symptoms of mine. and i refused and instead said some hurtful words which seriously disappoint her. she wrote a one page long letter to me and ignored me for 2 WHOLE days. She even cried when i approached her yesterday to apologise. i feel bad. i am sorry . but don't worry, now we are fine. :) and yes, without my parents, i wouldn't be living in this comfortable spacious house. i wouldn't be saving so much time from waiting for public transport and walking ALL the way to my camp. i am entirely grateful. sometimes, they might not realise, but seriously, nothing beats having them as my parents.
With these wonderful people, i have learned to keep a distance from immature people who just doesn't have the ability to think sensibly. come on, even a 9 year old kid can think better than these people. to those people who pisses me off in any way or another, i just cannot be bothered by them . life is too short. i wanna meet all the wonderful people around. those people reading this long blog entry of mine, cherish all the moments and things u have now. everybody is fortunate in one way or another. don't let a 9 year old kid shame you.
