today, i felt the sense of guilt in me again, the same feeling i had a few months back when i was attached out for lifeguard course and inter-formation swimming. i realise my life is great, being able to stay out of camp and pursue the sports i love, but then again i realise at the expense of me attaching out, my poor friends are doing the job i am supposed to do. sometimes, i really feel like skipping training and return back camp to help them lighten the workload, but again, the moment i think of the number of people who will start making sarcastic remarks such as " hey.. u r back AT LAST", i relented. Thats the problem with army. No one recognises your good deed, unless you appear to be a MR NICE guy all the time, which i absolutely don't look like ONE, so i decided to just f**k it. I have gotten over it for now.
tried calling one of my friend who seem to be ignoring ALL my calls. Its getting on my nerves actually when he is making such a small little mattar so HUGE. To be exact, i think i called 7 times so far, but he never answers my phone. Hey come on, i am not your boyfriend. I don't have to pacify you. Sorry but your stubborn acts seriously makes me feel all my effort have gone to waste. Since you persist, and if u are reading my blog, yes, you will not receive any of my calls ANYMORE. Learn to be happy. Learn to take things easy. If you don't learn the hard way, you NEVER learn. I shall not compromise anymore. PLEASE learn. PLEASE.
Offended? Too bad. You are just being too petty. Serious.
