i am puzzled, why i always create too much attention for myself. my actions. my speech. my presentation.. whatever. i will usually be remembered more than the majorities. Its not as if i am outstanding, but i sometimes really detest the attention i am getting everywhere, let it be work, sports, anywhere.
today, my waterpolo team mates told me i am one who gets attention VERY easily, because of my "telegenic" face, because of the way i present myself. lol. it all happens because i complain why people ALWAYS focus too much attention on me. For instance, whenever i lose the ball in a match, some of my teammates will start "disparaging" me on how dumb it is losing the ball. whenever i panic whenever i am under pressure, people will use this as a joke ON me. argh. I know they are JOKING, BUT i don't get it why other people don't get this "special" treatments whenever they commit such faults. WHY? why do people open up to me SO easily, even my teammates whom i got to know only like a month ago?! Am i really so easy-going that people think they do not have to watch what they say in front of me? Do I look like one who can take ALL kinds of jokes?! lol. No matter how i flare up. No matter how I trying looking angry, people still LOVE the idea of joking with me.
Some people try SO hard to get attention, yet i always get the unnecessary attention which I always hope I never get. Sometimes, I can say hi to somebody which i never realise i knew. perhaps i have a recognisable face but seriously, I need a break. Its not as if I am POPULAR. I am just unfortunate getting all the BAD attention. Guys, stop focusing on me. I am NOT a celebrity. I don't wanna be remembered for my bad ways.
