i am not feeling really good these few days. my body hasn't been feeling very well, everything around me hasn't been going very smoothly, my parents are annoying me, nothing recently has really interest me. Saturday night was boring. Slept at an unbelievablely early time(8pm). It has been ages since i last slept so early on a Saturday night. Saturday night is usually for late movies, clubbing, chilling out, walking around aimlessly, ktv, chatting online ..... whatever but not SLEEPING. I realise i am getting so boring, so tired of life. so sick of people. so-not-sociable and so unfriendly. one of my colleagues actually said i look like an individualist, somebody who can do things just alone, say it be work, watching a movie, going to the gym, swimming, whatsoever. this makes me ponder. it seems like i am one. i go to the gym alone. i usually enjoy going swimming alone. i enjoy driving alone. i enjoy tanning alone. i appreciate being alone most of the time. i find my colleagues a hindrance more of a help sometimes. but going to the movie alone, i only tried once in my entire life. ha. what a loner i am. what a loser. lol. NO. i shouldn't be degrading myself like that, since i am usually deemed as being egoistic, being confident and being arrogant.
its just hilarious. people usually see the opposite of you. i realise. and its hard to convince them you are not usually what they actually SEE. whatever. i am not obliged to convince anyone. i don't need to.
