i realise a charactertistic in me: i can't do nothing. i can't stone. i don't like lazing around. I have to find something to do to pass my time. In short, I am some sort of a workoholic. However, I still appreciate the free time I have occassionally, and cherish it by lazing around but yet doing something. Thats the reason why I find people who can tolerate doing nothing the whole day so amazing. I can never do that. never. Its bad. I am starting to take pride in my work. I am heading towards the art of perfection. I love seeing my job done really nicely. I love committing to stuff that nobody is willing to do. I scold my tuition kid because I seriously want him to do well and not just any tutor who is just interested in the money and not the welfare of the student. I even went to the extent of spending 1 hour with the mum just to counsel the kid, to tell him to do the right thing and stop fooling around. I even sacrifice so much of my perspiration to attempt solving something but ultimately in vain. Sometimes, i feel i am doing too much, too many extra work that people see it as superficial, as me trying to prove something, to show I am "hardworking" or whatever, but seriously, its more of the pride, more of myself, to prove that i am somebody worthy, and of course to shut people's filthy mouth. The change in me is immense. Even my parents say so. Not a good thing actually, but i like it this way.
I am too frank at times. I tend to annoy people very easily. I know. There is always a reason why my precious car got scratched. I have faith in my PR skills, but still, its the frankness in me. I need to change. Its just unwise to be too frank at times. It can help me save many $75(for touching up scratches) . I should eat less chicken franks. ha ha. not funny i know.
i am so unflawless. many other flaws which i don't wanna mention. As a friend, parent, colleagues, please pardon me for all the flaws i have. I know I am irritating. Yes i really know.
