Sunday, December 11, 2005
.late nights.
i am nocturnal.
actually, i do love waking up early in the morning for a run, followed by sweating out @ the gym, and lastly a refreshing swim to start my day. However, it never seems to work because I am just too plain lazy.
somehow, i dread alarm clocks.. but.. who doesn't like waking up whenever their body tell them so, and not by irritating alarms?!
i met up some of my old pals today... and i felt so at ease bullshitting and crapping. still remember before i entered s*u, they told me :" gav, you better behave yourself in your new school because i doubt anybody would be able to take your crap... and maintain some image please. " ha. i tried actually, but i don't think i succeed. I acted as a drag queen during one of the camps, and i danced shamelessly in front of the whole accountancy community during one of the events. argh. yea. say that i AA. whatever man.
" don't bother what people think of you la. " .. that's what i always tell myself, but somehow it's hard to be so nonchalant @ times. i tend to think negative most of the times, and i am sceptical about how people think sometimes. I am petty? I am unreasonable? I am just a clown? I am dumb? Fake? Moronic? Stupid?
Hard to tell how people feel about you.
Whenever I hear my friends bitching about other people, I always wonder when I was the main subject of some other groups' bitching sessions...
For instance, Group A sees me walking towards the Yong Tau Foo store @ Kopitiam and starts smiling at me... but they are actually saying : " Look at that guy. He thinks he very cute. He is just one piece of shit. Look at his curly hair. Gross. And.. you know, he damn AA one. cannot make it. danced in front of the whole accountancy community. And forever smiling. Blardy fake. Lets fake back by smiling @ him.. HAHAHAHAHA. "
somehow i can imagine that coming out from people's mouth. Maybe I think too much. Maybe I am too imaginative. My friends told me I appear arrogant on first impression.
errr.. really?
k. let talk about my fulfilling saturday now.
quite fulfilling, but felt a little sick. managed to bring my computer down to upper serangoon for repair, and met up P, Z, C, C, M, J @ M's 21st.. and went newton to meet up H, T, S, J, T.. and made a new friend L! haha... but i missed frisbee. *yawn*
i wanna head to the gym tomorrow. gonna start training for my biathlons. :/
flu bug, get lost please. let me start my intentive training regime. haha.
floated away at
3:12 AM