Thursday, February 09, 2006
.blurt out.
undeniably, i am currently busy with my life. However, i know i am not the only busy guy around and people all around me are also tied down with their commitments. Which action of mine actually show I think I am the only busy guy and people should accomodate me? No. i have never ever implied that. I am not that self-centred.
In fact, before taking up the many commitments I am having right now, I have put in substantial considerations whether I will be able to cope with the tight schedules. Most importantly, I want to ensure that people around me won't get affected and I should be the only one answerable for my own decision. Eg:- I know I will have to sacrifice by having less lunch dates with my friends, no more chit-chat sessions during weekends, and studying in the library with my groupmates.
Of course, I do feel stressed sometimes and I, unknowingly, put up a very glum face. BUT, it has never been my intention to show displeasure with anybody and that everybody owes me for my busy schedule. Ridiculous. I am totally aware I chose this myself and I shouldn't drag anybody down.
It's extremely disappointing how some of your friends judge you sometimes. Maybe I guess its because I have been spending too little time with them, causing all these misunderstandings, but yea, disappointment is the word.
Will be taking up another slot for swimming starting from this week. Shrucks. Coping with my 4 modules + all these upcoming events, Shit.
To those pals who are also busy as mid terms are approaching and so, lets perservere together! =)
i hate being misunderstood.
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2:23 AM