Wednesday, March 08, 2006
.swim like a fish.
like i mentioned earlier, my fitness level has dropped ever since i started school. army really transformed me totally. i remember how i used to be a slacker back in JC... study, slack, rot, organise house events occassionally... and thats it. i don't remember having much contributions then, but at least @ army, i felt my life was pretty fulfilling. i said it before in one of my very old entries and i shall not repeat again.
and now i am in S*U. i tell myself i wanna be more involved this time round. i guess i somehow achieved that. i tried joining as many activities as possible to gain as much exposure as possible. In the process, i met new people, adapt new working style, and learn about my new-found strengths/weaknesses. I quite like that.
Of course, I have suffered setbacks. I have my down periods too. Not being able to meet my expectations, not being able to participate as much as i wanted myself to be in class, not meeting the targets i have set for myself, and many more. I am learning to be contented though. A recent community service project reminded me how many more unfortunate people are there. I know this is so cliché, but we, human beings, always complain how ill-fated we are and constantly forget the fact that we are actually very very fortunate. I am glad I have a loving family. I am glad to have food to eat every night I come home. Its heartwarming seeing home-cooked food left on the dining table waiting for me all the time. I am so darn appreciative of my parents seriously. My brother, despite very gangsterish, is quite nice too. I am glad to have a car of my own. I am glad to have tuition kids when so many people out there are struggling to find students. I am glad to be given an opportunity to coach in a reputable swimming club. i am glad to have a place in university. i am glad that my life is fulfilling at the moment. i am glad to be who i am.
of course, being glad is not enough. I will seek to improve myself as far as i can. i still wanna do many things. i have so many things on my mind. the fears i have right now is to lose the pillar of support i have and to lose my soul.
i hope i am talking sense.
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4:11 PM