Thursday, May 04, 2006
.shallow.
these days, i no longer turn to blogging when i am frustrated, pissed off, upset or demoralised. i used to do that when i only gave my blog address to my few close friends. however, nowadays, i realised my blog links are everywhere and it's scary how some superficial acquaintances of yours are reading your every past entries and comment about it to his/her friends.
thus, i only blog about happy stuff these days. happy pictures, happy events, and whatever that make people happy. of course, these posts do not equate to me being a really happy person, but at least, what people see is a jovial, cheerful and happy-go-lucky gav*n, at least to these superficial acquaintances.
laughs.
a few weeks back, one of my friends commented on how blogs are used to manipulate people's feelings and how rubbish some blogs are. they are not truthful and reading them are a waste of time. erhm.
holidays started on the 13th April for me. NUS/NTU pals, don't kill me. :P However, i realised i have been pushing myself kinda hard ever since the start of holidays. gym.frisbee.plan asoc camp06.chillingout.mahjong.movie.shopping.supper.run.swim.coaching.tuition.sleep.
Although i was so packed, i realised i am engaging in monotonous stuff! On second thoughts, these activities which I am currently engaging in are not rising me up to a higher level. Sometimes, I think whether it would be wise to drop swimming and pick up a new sports so that i won't feel so useless. Oh, I am investing in stocks but all my funds are under my dad's control. It's not fulfilling at all. shrucks.
My greatest priority currently is to learn as many new skills as possible. Playing and entertainment are secondary to me. Even girls. *laughs* ( although it can be quite dull without these ... ) Call me competitive, but one cannot afford to lose so much especially when you are already 22 years old.
i guess i need to give my current life a deeper thought, on whether i really want to lead such a life, or maybe try out something different. I am extremely thankful I attained a fairly decent grade this term despite my busy tight schedule, and I confess it's indeed very fulfilling knowing you managed to do well in juggling so many things at one go. *i had my fair share of failure and disappointment though*
I have many things to blog actually, but I shall leave it to another day?
Take good care everybody. (:
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